When I got home from this morning's broadcast, there was a message on my answering machine.
That means that someone called between 6:30 and 9:30 in the morning. Bad sign.
It was my grandmother's pastor. My grandmother is not well and she wants to gather the family.
Her youngest son is coming to pick me up in an couple of hours and I hope we return tonight, but I won't know until we get there.
Her oldest son has been missing for weeks, off on the latest in a career of drunken binges, and my dying grandmother is asking me to find him. I can do it, but I'm not sure I can handle what I find.
We are going to have a lot of work to do, and the last thing I need is my soggy, pathetic father fucking everything up with his alcoholic despair and destruction.
I think he's dead and lying on the floor of a rental shack somewhere, and I don't feel like dealing with that either.
Anyway, there's always the chance of another false alarm. There have been several of those already- in 1990, her doctor gave my grannie about a year to live, since her heart,kidneys and lungs were kaput, diabetes and cigarettes being the main culprits.
Earlier this year, my brother used his vacation time to fly home for just such an event.
I imagine he'll be flying home again soon.
It could be a false alarm.
She only had a year left in 1990.
That was seventeen years ago.
Seventeen years.
Time grows short and I must go no. I hope to see you soon.
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good memory, seventeen is a magic number.
When I was seventeen
It was a very good year
It was a very good year for small town girls
And soft summer nights
We'd hide from the lights
On the village green
When I was seventeen
my second favorite sinatra song
an extra 17 years--- what i would have given for that and my grandma
Allan! So sorry to hear about the turn of events...hope you are okay, and I will talk to you on Tuesday. Love ya much and my heart and thoughts are with you and your family. Sending hugs...
E.
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Oh allan. I am with E. I am sooo sorry that this is what you are dealing with now. I know we talked about it some, but nothing really makes it better.
Ya know if you need a friend.. Im usually around somewhere.. just leave me a msg... its not like im too busy buddy!!
HUGS to ya.
my friend...lit candles and saying prayers..if you need me..call..jac
You are in my thoughts friend.
hope all is well..
You're in my thoughts as well . . .
Thoughts and prayers....
any word allan?
I'll be thinking of you, Allan. Call me sometime.
Hi everyone, thanks to each of you for your wishes and prayers.
We are waiting. If she makes it, we'll have to make some choices, but there are not many options. She's lucid (when not doped up)and has made as much peace as anyone can hope for.
Love to you all,
Allan
oh boy allan... i read the posts from where i last read so i hope i'm not going to send you hugs and good thought on this post and the next one brings "bad" news...
strongs dude...
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