I don't mean raw lust or crucifixion-based passions, I refer to the creative and/or romantic spirit that drives us to write songs and stories, carve figures out of stone, stay up all night painting, fall in love and write poetry about it- that kind of passion.
Now I know why I quit the last band I was in. It just didn't excite me and I couldn't put my heart into it-even if it's a punk cover band, it's still a cover band.
I'm a song-writer-I can't get into playing an entire set of songs that I have no creative input towards.
I'd been trying to rationalize why I left-too busy, practice is far away and late at night etc. etc.
The truth is that it just left me unsatisfied, not because I wanted more, but rather because I want different. If that sounds selfish, it probably is. So be it.
I am happier recording my own songs, alone in my bedroom/studio, than I am playing in a band I don't care about. It doesn't matter if anyone ever hears these songs or not,that's not the point. It's just something I have to do.
If you are reading this, you most likely have a blog;if you have a blog there's a good chance that there are one or more things that you care deeply about. You might not even know it now, and some passions change as you get older, but if you reflect a bit I imagine you'll go "A-HA! Without(fill-in-blank) existence would be hollow and aimless!"
Not a hobby-we have a large part in choosing our hobbies. Our passions tend to choose us.
That good thing or things that you would keep doing even if you received a letter saying, "We ignore you"-signed,The World.
It's nothing to be ashamed of, quite the opposite.
Tonight, turn off the computer and work on that painting, or finish that song that needs a new chorus. Touch up the dialogue on that short-story-it's pretty good,but it need a little revision.
Unless your passion is blogging, computer graphics or you use the PC to write.
In that case keep hands away from the 'off' button and let it all out.