I 've reached the breaking point. Can no longer deal with the 'real' world. Well, that was a long time ago; but only now do I recognize it.
A message from an old friend clued me in.
First contact in 20-odd years.
You see, she tried the corporate/ normal route too, and it made her miserable for years. So she saved up her money, bought a house and got out. Now she's happy and it's contagious.
I very recently turned my back on the whole shit-job thing, but she ditched that crap long before I did. It takes a long time to pull one's self out of an avalanche of despair, but I know someone who did it.
After all this time she still inspires me.
And no, it's not" like that".
It's just the realization that hearts and souls don't die if you don't let them.