Happy New Year

Other than being accused of sociopathic behavior it's been a pretty good New Years Eve, even made it to (almost now) midnight- and if you think sitting alone at home blogging is sad, you would be right .

But being drunk and destructive and probably in some sort of trouble would be a lot worse.

Some things that help make tonight better:

First, I was concerned that some of my friends may have somehow gotten the wrong impression from an earlier post- this is second hand info- I have contacted my closest friends and so far no one seems to think I offed myself- so I feel a little better, hopefully it'll pass without harm or more fuss. Oh, oops, nevermind- I did fuck up. I didn't mean to-I really think it's a terrible mistake-but that doesn't matter. I did it if you think I did it and any seed of doubt you have about me might as well be a conviction. I thought I was pretty clear my plans didn't involve suicide , but obviously I wasn't. I had no reason, nothing to gain by trying to do what you claim I did and it stuns me that it's even an issue, that you trust me so little.
If you really cared, you would give me the benefit of the doubt instead of this merciless, unforgiving rush to judgement.
There's nothing else I can say about this.



Anway, if you haven't ditched me by now, I had a great radio show this morning. There were techie glitches, but I am ultra-smooth (lucky) and somehow muddled thru -check this out- I didn't get the suicide mails I was told about, but I did get a fan letter from Canada. First Sweden, France, Mexico, theUK , now Canada- my Fan Club grows every week:

Hi Allan,

My name is Elvin and I have recently started listening to WRIR on the web here in Toronto Canada. I heard your program for the first time a couple of weeks ago and really enjoyed your variegated selection of tunes. I just had a few general questions about the show that i hoped you could answer.

Q1. What is it called?

Q2. When does it air and do you usually get started right on time?

Q3. Do you host the entire show by yourself every week, or do you often have a co host/fill-in?

Q4. Who regularly fills in when you are away?

Q5. Are there any news headline updates, community news updates or regular features during the program and, if so, when do they air?

Q6. Is this a permanent time slot for your program, or does the station's schedule change every semester?

You guys have a great station: keep up the good work!

Best and happy new year!
Elvin

I wrote him back promptly, thanked him and answered all his questions. Little things matter. I made someone in Toronto happy just by doing what I love to do.
Cool.

Third, the Twin just sent email from Chicago, so I know he arrived safely. I may move there when it gets warmer, it's a crazy, fucked-up lovable city. A job would help, the Twin maybe could help- a job means I don't have to crash at his place, so finding work for me is in his best interest ,heh!

Last, but not least, my part-time Blogpal Susanne has really done me right- out of the blue she calls me and tells me to expect a knock on my door in about 45 minutes, but don't worry...good thing, otherwise I mighta flushed my stash...anyway, the knock arrives as promised and it's Pizza Guy and he's got a pile of pizzas and goodies, courtesy of Susanne and I swear it's probably the first time a pizza boy ever saw a grown man weep over a stack of pizzas, but it really meant a lot to me.
Susanne, your timing was PERFECT, thankyou!
Susanne has also helped me produce a legitimate resume so maybe I can stop bitching about not having a job and start bitching about having a job instead.

So I can start the year well fed and, if I can't be happy, at least I'm not mortified.
Who am I kidding? I'm pretty set right now.
You should see all this food- the only reason I'm not grinning is my mouth is full!

Happy New Year